Today is my little punkin’s 10th birthday. Ah, I remember when I brought him home in a shoebox. He was an evil little thing, all fur and teeth and nails. But he took to me immediately and has been by my side ever since. In fact, he’s sitting right next to me as I type this, probably grumpy that I’m using the computer and not scratching his ears. Twice a year, for their birthdays, I give the boys canned cat food, so they will be gorging themselves tonight for sure.

I feel lately like I’ve been a bad friend. I can’t put my finger on the reason, I just haven’t been 100% available. I think it’s all the stress at work. I have person A telling me something in confidence, person B telling me something else in confidence, person C griping about their love life … plus all this wondering about who is going to lose their job next (more positions were cut last Friday) and it gets exhausting. I don’t talk about anything because I can’t keep it all straight! And then outside of work, I’ve just been blah and self-centered and probably not that much fun. It’s not like when the depression was bad, because I can laugh, I can smile, and it doesn’t feel hollow. But I do think I have a bit of depression going on because, well, that’s just not me.

And then I bitch and moan about my little life when I read about something like this. Lisa has always been an honest blogger, telling things like they are. And it breaks my heart that she has had such a rough time lately and has another fight in front of her. Lisa, I am sending prayers, positive thoughts and hugs from Indy to Philly … I know you will fight long and hard and I know you will succeed!

∗ Posted by Monique on 04.01.2008
∗ Animals, Blogging, Friends, My life