I’m working at home today. I have a course to write and yesterday, the noise in my part of the office was unbearable, even with my iPod cranked up. I didn’t really prepare for my day at home, however. I can’t find anything caffeinated — I might have a 2 liter of diet mountain dew in the car but I’m not sure and my hair’s wet so I’m not going out there now — and I don’t have any creamer for my coffee. WTH? I’ll definitely be going out at lunchtime for some caffeine!

My trainer was out yesterday so I worked out with her substitute. Holy hell, he was tough. He upped my weights on just about everything. I ended up doing about 20 minutes more cardio too. I’m surprised I’m not more sore today. We talked about weight loss and I mentioned I was considering surgery. OMG. You would have said I thought I was going to hack my fat off of my body. He actually said he was “begging” me to reconsider. Like this is a decision — and I haven’t even made my final decision — that anyone takes lightly. Like I’m going to wake up the morning after surgery and magically be a size 6. Ha! It still takes a lot of hard work and dedication to lose the weight and keep it off. I’m going to that seminar tonight; right now I’m thinking that the surgery is something that I want to do, it’s just a matter of deciding what kind. As I told my friend S., I can live without jelly bellys or onion rings the rest of my life if it means I could walk 5 miles on a nice day or sit on a plane without being paranoid that I’m going to crowd the person next to me … even though I know my Reese Witherspoon-like pointy chin will reappear!