• Went to the “centennial celebration” at my brother’s work. I was hoping for awesomeness but there wasn’t much to be found. I insisted that he, my mother and I have our photo taken in front of this Nascar car but it was a polaroid and ended up pretty light. It was a good picture too — the way I was standing, one leg almost looked skinny. LOL.

• I wore my margarita t-shirt. Oddly,that didn’t embarrass my mother. My straw cowboy had did … which of course made me even more determined to wear it, even though it flattened the hell out of my hair.

• My mom and I are going to visit my aunt in a nursing home tonight. She’s had MS for about 20 years. She’s also quite hateful. I haven’t seen her in a few years. Ugh.

• My attitude re: Mutherfucker is now that it was a positive experience in that it showed me that I can open up and I will love again. That doesn’t mean that my heart is whole again, but I don’t regret anything and I am proud of myself for taking the chance and making myself vulnerable. For a while I felt guilty about that angry VM I left him but I think that was the exhaustion. Now I firmly believe that mutherfucker deserved a whole hell of a lot more … and that if I am ever in one of the stores he manages, holy hell, he better watch out.

• My natural nails are almost too long for me to type easily. What the hell? I have never had nails this long in my life. They’ve grown like crazy in the past few months. And no, I’m not knocked up. I surely would have had the kid by now. The mutherfucker, however, did stay in too long and the condom slipped off when he pulled out. It was day 14 of my cycle and I hope the Nuva-Ring did its job. Just pray that the good Lord does not plan to bless Miss Monique with a bebe at this point in her life. (Talk about another angry VM … lol).

∗ Posted by Monique on 06.30.2007
∗ My life