Jason has already taken me out of his top friends on Myspace and replaced me with a girl named Stephanie. He dated a girl named Stephanie. His page title now says “2nd chances are what life is all about.”

I sent him a txt that say “Makes sense now. 2nd chances, Stephanie … go fuck yourself. Glad I found out now what love means to you.”

This is what I get in return:
“I first have to apologize for things that have happened. I want to start at the beginning of all of this, so that by the time I make it to the end, maybe you will understand. Three weeks ago, I was dating a girl, much like yourself (not as sassy). I had just filed for my divorce 7 months ago, I met a girl and she started out to be the girl of my dreams. I never used the excuse that she was a rebound girl, she was just everything I was looking for in a new partner.
The problem with this girl is that over time, she didn’t and wouldn’t treat me or give me the attention that I continued to give to her. I became frustrated, I felt that maybe there was some doubt as to her actions and things that she might be doing. I never accused her of anything. About 4 weeks ago, we decided that we were going to part ways. Exchanged words and said a lot of things that were angry towards the other.
She said that she wouldn’t and couldn’t be the person that I wanted her to be. She had so much going on in her life that she was overlooking what was most important to her, which was me.

I was devestated, in a fit of anger, I signed up for Match.com. I figured that if she wouldn’t give me what I needed, I would find someone who would. Never for one second, did I think that I would find someone that was totally into me, but then you entered the picture.
Her and I never sat down and talked anything out. That was until I was on my way home on Sunday evening. I wasn’t going to talk to her. The more I thought about it, that was 8 months that I would have been a wreck, had it not been for someone in my life. I did talk to her. I don’t know where it goes from here with her, but she said things to me that I was waiting to hear in all 8 months of being with her.

I know that I am now the bad guy here. I never in a million years thought that we would go as far as we did within a weeks time. I have been completely wrapped up in the moment. I have done a lot of soul searching and I still do not have an answer. Yesterday when you text me, I was working off of a half hour of sleep. I have decisions that need to be made and I just don’t know what is right or wrong.

I feel bad for the actions that I have made. You are an amazing individual. For me, right now, I feel that it is best that I figure out what it is that will truly make me happy. I have a lot of things going on in my life right now. I am just trying to put things in perspective and make sure that I make the right decisions for me.

I obviously have made a bad decision. I don’t expect for you to understand and I know that you are fucking pissed and angered. For that I am sorry.”

Needless to say I sent an e-mail and then left a scathing VM (of course he didn’t pick up).

∗ Posted by Monique on 06.26.2007
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