So this is the e-mail I get from Jason this morning:
“I want to be able to say that we are on the same page, but right now, I am not sure what I want. I thought I did, but the more I think abt it , I don’t know….Things are going to start getting hectic for me and time is something I am not sure how much I have.”
Oh. My. God. I am absolutely a wreck. I have been crying at my desk since I read that. My friends are all telling me that he’s just freaked out, to give it time, to wait before I reply … I just cannot believe it. Midnight Sunday, he leaves my apartment, telling me he loves me. Monday morning, poof. I can’t remember the last time I felt this used. I swear to God, if he wanted to get laid, he could have just told me instead of putting me through all this and getting my hopes up.
What hurts the most is that I believed him. I believed what he felt and I believed what I felt. I opened myself to him emotionally. I just really can’t believe this is happening.
Update: I sent a txt that said, “How dare you say you love me then pull this on me. I feel nothing but used by you.” I’m still crying, I feel physically ill, this is awful.
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What a coward.
Do not start second guesing yourself. You are a great person!!!
Comment by
themuttprincess (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 11:22 am
Ah babe, maybe just step back - take a sec - see what he does, ya know?
I mean he sounds like he’s great and all and blah blah blah. But he’s still a boy. You have to expect a certain amount of stupidity, right?
Comment by
Miss Britt (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 12:16 pm
Give him the space let him calm it down in his head. It will work itself out.
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"said" woman (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 12:20 pm
I agree with everyone else. Take a step back and wait a few. See how this works itself out. He probably is scared. My husband and I have been married for over two years, and he is still scared about the fact that he loves me. Seriously.
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Angel (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 12:29 pm
I wanted to add that if he does not come to his senses, just realize that this was his loss, and he will realize that sooner or later. Also, if he did do this just to get laid…Karma is a bitch. Take care of yourself.
*Hugs*
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Angel (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 12:31 pm
Awwww Pumpkin…I really thought this was the one too. I guess there are two Mr. Jackasses out there…I know how much it hurts but eventually it does go away. Just remember that you are a terrific person and if he couldn’t see what he had…he’s the fool.
Comment by
izzy (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 2:23 pm
holy hell girl… what is WITH these men we find?!?!?
I wish I was there to hug you and take you out for a cocktail… we could man bash for a good hour and then tell each other just how great we are… only to admit how much we miss them as we say good bye…
it’ll get better, at least that’s what everyone keeps telling me…
*hugs*
Comment by
Tori (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 2:27 pm
Holy wow!!
What the hell is he thinking? Gawd he needs a swift kick in the balls. I’m in for a kickin session. Anyone else in?
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Frankie (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 2:53 pm
Thank you all for commiserating with me. I am beyond miserable. I have been crying at my desk since pretty much 10 a.m.
I am just baffled. Nothing he did or said Sunday night gave me even an inkling of an idea that this would happen. I can’t wait to go home, take an ambien and crawl into bed …
Comment by
Monique (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 3:08 pm
Girl go home make a nice cocktail and come online and just chat with us. There is nothing better then being able to get everything off your chest before you head to bed. You will sleep tons better not having that heavy weight on your shoulders.
I will be home around 6pm my time. Its 3:19 here now. If you need anything send a text to me through my site.
Take care hun.
Comment by
Frankie (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 3:20 pm
Aww…I’m sorry to hear that.
Take care of yourself, okay?
Comment by
Kentucky Girl (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 3:29 pm
Men are idiots. They have no clue that the things they say really can be cutting to us. Just keep your head up. He is really NOT worth your tears.
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Miss (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 3:53 pm
Frankie — thanks, that’s a good idea. I’ll be on yahoo tonight.
KG — I made an appointment for a facial tomorrow after work. Nothing helps healing like pampering. Well, and booze and pills and sleep. But pampering is probably my healthiest option.
Miss — I know. I know I know I know. Hopefully the tears have stopped for now …
Comment by
Monique (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 3:53 pm
I wish I had some words of wisdom, but this baffles me too. What is with men!!!??? They just continue to baffle the hell out of me. Who knows, maybe this will just work itself out and things will be better. I will say a prayer that they do. You deserve so much better than this shit!
Comment by
janda (Who am I?) - June 26, 2007 4:37 pm
what an ass!sorry im late hun,but i feel angry because i have been to that place and it is not nice.we,the virtual townspeople of blogville are coming out tonight with our matchettes and torches to lnych the motherfucker!ass-fucking-hole!
im so sorry and i wish i was there with you to just hug you and let u cry on my bossom.stay sweet honey he does not deserve you just like every other asshole in our lives dont deserve us!asswipe!
Comment by
Maisha (Who am I?) - July 2, 2007 7:58 am