Of Course

I took tonight off from the part-time job, realizing that my sanity is not worth $45. I was practically giddy with glee all day today, knowing that I didn’t have to sit and stare at those tests for five hours tonight.

I took a chance and called Mark, the guy I talked to last week, to see if he was available. Calling a guy still makes me so nervous! He called me back as he was leaving work and he sounded like hell. Apparently he has a cold, like I’m getting over. He sounded disappointed, though, and said that he would have liked to have gone out tonight with me. He’s going to call me in a few days, when he feels better.

Mark and I have been e-mailing for two months and have talked on the phone a few times. At this point, I just want to meet … I’m worried that the expectations will be too high and thus the disappointment greater if the attraction/interest isn’t mutual.

Later on, I called Jesse and left him a message and mentioned that I was calling to see about our plans to get together this weekend. That was about two hours ago. At first, I thought, oh he’s probably on a date (oh! the paranoia of dating!), but then checked match.com and his profile said “online now.” He still hasn’t called. What the hell? I see now that my “I was surprised when you called Saturday” conversation with him will have to be moved up to over-the-phone as opposed to in-person. He hasn’t answered my e-mail from Monday either … My gut’s telling me to let him go.