That’s how I started the “talk” with MJCF today.

I told him I had a date Tuesday and that my date asked me out again. And we made plans for next weekend. And I wondered why MJCF wouldn’t make plans more than a day in advance. And I told him that he’s not willing to change anything about his life to let me in.

He stared at the ground the entire time, except when I mentioned my date — his head snapped up then lol. He just kept saying, “I know … I know … I’m a mess.” He was acting like it was no big deal, but I saw his eyes get red. I told him it was a shame, because we get along so well and he’s absolutely adorable, but it’s time for him to grow up.

Then he carried my bottled water in for me, and gave me a $50 gift certificate to my salon as a birthday present.

He stood at my door, looked at me, and then reached over to pick some lint off my shirt, which seemed like an oddly intimate thing to do, given the circumstances lol.

I started crying as soon as he left. But, shit, I cried when that guy I went out with twice ended things with me. MJCF just makes me sad. But I can’t change him. I can only hope that someday he’ll realize how good of a catch I am and that I’ll be happy with someone else then. ; )

∗ Posted by Monique on 10.15.2005
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