So I had a date tonight

And I really wasn’t too excited. I didn’t seriously consider blowing him off, but I had a major case of nerves and the thought of sitting at home, on my comfy couch, was pretty appealing. But I went home after work, changed into a sassy red sweater and my favorite dark “date” jeans and I was feeling much better. We met at a Mexican restaurant where they have really good margaritas. I was early and I think the waiters felt protective of me; they knew I was meeting someone and kept circling. It was like they were ready to make me feel better if he didn’t show up. It was kind of cute.

I saw him in the parking lot, well, who I assumed he was. He was wearing a suit, having come from work, and I thought, wow. He’s tall, looks like the former athlete he is and has a really attractive face. We talked for about two hours, a very easy conversation, aided probably by my one margarita and his two, but hell, it was a first date.

I was pleasantly surprised that he’s been in a few long-term relationships; the last one he was in lasted for 3 1/2 years and ended seven months ago. Before that, he dated a woman for five years.

After dinner he walked me to my car and asked me what “my thoughts” were. I confidently said, “I’d like to see you again,” kind of surprising myself (I remember thinking, hmmm, I have to tell my therapist about this!). I think his response was “Excellent!” but in a non-surferish way lol. Unfortunately, the date will have to wait until the weekend after next …

To add to the mix, MJCF e-mailed me this morning to ask me out to dinner/movie. I really don’t know when I’ll see him again, as the rest of this week seems out, he’ll be gone this weekend, and then I start my part-time job which will consume my weekdays for the next month. It’s already been two weeks since we saw each other, and that was for lunch; beyond that it’s been five weeks since we spent any measurable amount of time together. At this point, we’re little more than pen-pals. This guy tonight was able to commit to a date 10 days aways yet MJCF can’t commit to tomorrow. As much as I like MJCF and as much time as I’ve invested in our relationship, there’s no point in continuing on with him if he isn’t willing to make room in his life for me.