So MJCF came to call around 6:30 this morning to drive me to the airport.

I am so nervous around him b/c there’s so much I want to say, so much I’m unsure about. Plus, it takes a lot of my energy to just focus on conversation instead of letting my my wander to where it wants to go.

We talked all the way to the airport, then he surprised me by parking his car. I thought he was just going to drop me off and said as much; he said, “Why would I have driven you if I was just going to do that???” He carried both of my bags inside — inc. the suitcase that was so heavy the woman at the airline counter asked me what was in it! — and waited with me while I checked in. Then he walked with me to the security line … we kissed twice and it was very difficult to remember that we were in a very public place and not get too carried away. We talked for a moment or two, then he kissed me again. Sigh.

After I got through security and was at my gate, I sent him a text msg., thanking him. I said it was great to see him this morning and that I would miss him. He replied almost immediately, with one of his favorite words: “Likewise. ; )”

I was thinking about him on the plane and I so want to know him. I need this to be defined, even as “dating.” I would be really hurt if he were dating someone else, although he’s said he’s not, which is a pretty big change for me as I’ve dated several guys this year while “involved” with MJCF.

I wasn’t expecting to have internet access while in Orlando but I do … I think I’ll be incommunicado for a few days then work up my nerve to actually call him on Wednesday. ; )

∗ Posted by Monique on 09.18.2005
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