Oh the indignity! lol

I’m not sure if you can call it being dumped after only two dates, but still.

New Guy didn’t feel a “great romantic attraction between us.” Oh but he wanted to be friends. I replied that we had too many differences, inc. age, life experience (he was a virgin!) and values/beliefs, for things to have worked out or even to have a honest friendship.

I admit I cried … but I have a tendency to lump emotional issues together. My friend said, “What is going on? You went out with him twice! You knew it wasn’t going to work!” I was stressed about seeing the ex again, as I had to last evening, and feeling guilty and a little remorseful.

Then she — and another friend — independently tried to convince me to give MJCF a shot. They both, independently, called him a “good man.” I wailed, “He’s a train wreck!” My friend replied, “And you’re not?!” Touche.

So hell. What do I do now?

MJCF is doing everything I said that I wanted when I ended things with him before. My control-freak nature wants to ask him what the hell is going on, but I know him well enough to know that a tactic like that won’t get me anywhere. He’s supposed to come over tomorrow. Maybe I’ll ask him if he thinks we can be friends. Not “just” friends — I’m no fool — but real friends. I want to get to know him and I want him to know me, and not just the “me” I want him to see.

∗ Posted by Monique on 09.14.2005
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