On the Other Hand …

Last night I recognized the continued irony in my life.

A. I wanted to feel desired physically.
B. MJCF desired my physically.
C. I got pissy because MJCF only desired me physically.
D. Now MJCF and I are struggling to discover where an emotional connection fits in.

Now …
A. New Guy seems/seemed to want to know me.
B. After two dates he hasn’t kissed or otherwise made a move on me.
C. I’m pissy because he hasn’t shown an overt physical interest.

The question is, is New Guy being respectful (he is a church-going Christian) or does he think I’m not attractive???

My hideous mood last week was incredibly unappealing. I’m not going to let myself get bogged down like that again, especially because New Guy has given me no reason not to believe him. He’s always called when he said he would, so if he said he’d call, maybe it wasn’t just a line.

Add this to the file of embarassing date moments: In the car, “Let’s Get It On” came on the radio. We laughed awkwardly, then New Guy started softly singing along. As I was driving, I was thinking, here I am, with this hot guy, six years younger than me, who is all about not getting it on … and this moment is so freakin’ sexy.

Maybe it could be nice to actually get to know someone before getting involved. There’s no harm in it, at any rate. I’ve already halfway fallen for him anyway …