Well, Dang.

When it rains, it pours.

MJCF called me today and asked me out to eat and to see a movie.

It was fun. But I feel guarded around him, because I’m still not sure what’s going on. There were times, though, when we were at the restaurant that he was just, well, gazing at me. It flustered me, so I’d look away. I know he is attracted to me, but it always catches me off guard when he acts like it.

I think he’s confused too. At the theater, I wanted to touch him but kept talking myself out of it. I finally put my hand on his leg and as soon as I did, he put his arm around me, like he wasn’t sure if it was okay.

When we got back to my place, I invited him in, but I wasn’t too disappointed he declined. I was surprised when he waited to leave until I got inside my apartment. I guess I should give him a little more credit than I do.

I want to open up to him, to have him open up to me. But I’m scared.

I guess I’ll see how I feel tomorrow after my date with New Guy.

∗ Posted by Monique on 08.28.2005
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