It’s been two weeks since MJCF e-mailed me again. Tonight I asked him why. I wanted to have the conversation in person but as I didn’t know when that would happen, I asked him while we were chatting online. Here is a transcript:

Monique: I am enjoying your word usage today
MJCF: lol
MJCF: hey it is the least i can do
Monique: why’s that?
MJCF: I gotta be good for something
Monique: i thought the sparkling conversation was the reason why you contacted me again
MJCF: well duh
Monique: I was chastized for suggesting otherwise
MJCF: yep yep
Monique: I should say that everything I said earlier this summer still holds true
Monique: I mean, I know we have been talking about sex a lot, but aside from my moment of weakness that one Saturday, I’m not looking for casual sex anymore
MJCF: ok
MJCF: I kinda had that feeling
MJCF: or assumed that also
Monique: You had the feeling that that is how I felt, or that is how you feel?
MJCF: I thought that is how you felt
Monique: But you haven’t seemed all that interested in that either …
MJCF: well…because I knew or thought you werent interested in that
MJCF: so didnt want to give you the wrong impression
Monique: So then, if I may ask, why did you e-mail me again?
MJCF: can you belive it rained
MJCF: I had my windows down
MJCF: and didnt even know it was raining
MJCF: and to your question….I dont know..it is fun talking with you
MJCF: I guess
Monique: you “guess”? oh that’s nice … lol
MJCF: lol
MJCF: oh whatever
Monique: I meant it as a serious question, because I have been wondering for the past two weeks
Monique: So that’s why I asked
MJCF: I was being seerious
MJCF: serious
Monique: “oh whatever” is serious?
MJCF: yep

– later –

Monique: I don’t know if this needs to be said, but I am going to anyway lol. Asking you to see a movie or to have a drink is just an invitation to hang out … it’s nothing more … okay, maybe some kissing would be involved, but that’s it …
Monique: It doesn’t mean we’re dating, getting married, whatever lol
Monique: But if you are never going to accept, then I’ll stop asking …
MJCF: I never thought that either
MJCF: I just havent had a chance lately to do so
Monique: I said that because it’s been like that for eight months lol
Monique: I’m starting to feel like a jackass
MJCF: sorry
MJCF: I mean before
MJCF: I guess it was kinda different
MJCF: different scenario
MJCF: at least I think
Monique: yeah it was
Monique: I am really not sure what this is now
MJCF: so its kinda balancing between two diff things
MJCF: lol
Monique: balancing between sex and like, hanging out?
MJCF: I guess
MJCF: i dont know

This is exactly why whatever “this” was/is should have stayed in the past. Why won’t he just tell me why he came back??? My patience with his BS grows ever more thin.

∗ Posted by Monique on 08.13.2005
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