Wanting

I seem to be the only person who is surprised that MJCF has re-entered my life. My friends all seem to be as baffled as I as to his intentions, but the general consensus is pretty much, well duh. I knew he’d come crawling back …

So now what? We’ve chatted online for at least an hour a day since Friday. I’ve decided I’m not going to sleep with him. So do we become friends? I don’t know. I wish I did. After all of the shit I’ve been through in the past year or so, you’d think I’d handle ambiguity better.

What do I want? I want the grand romantic gesture I’ve been waiting for all of my life. But do I want it from him?