I haven’t been listening to much music lately. I mean, it seems like I’ve always got a CD in or my iTunes on, but I keep playing the same songs over and over again. I used to be so into music — I used to know what was new, what was now, what was going to be great. Now I’m lazy. My favorite radio station is one that is so corporate that there aren’t even and DJs. And I’m not really ashamed. I know I should support independent radio — but how can I when, oh my god, Jack FM is playing a Prince song I loved when I was 13?! (My sarcasm is only mild, because I’m pretty serious.)

One band I loved, loved, loved was Blue Rodeo. I spread the word far and wide, this band was so good. They’re still around but as far as I’m concerned, they peaked with the oh-so-brilliant Five Days in July CD from about 1993. The song “Five Days in May” is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever heard.

They met in a hurricane
Standing in the shelter out of the rain
She tucked a note into his hand
Later on they took his car
Drove on down where the beaches are
He wrote her name in the sand
Never even let go of her hand
Somehow they stayed that way
For those 5 days in May
Made all the stars around them shine
Funny how you can look in vain
Living on nerves and such sweet pain
A loneliness that cuts so fine
To find the face you’ve seen a thousand times
Sometimes the world begins
To set you up on your feet again
It wipes the tears from your eyes
How will you ever know
The way that circumstances go
Always gonna hit you by surprise
I know my part
You were there
In everything I’ve done
You are the one
Looking back it’s hard to tell
Why they stood while others fell
All I know is one cloudy day
They both just ran away
Rain on the windshield heading south
She loved the lines around his mouth
Sometimes the world begins
To set you up on your feet again
It wipes the tears from your eyes
How will you ever know
The way that circumstances go
Always gonna hit you by surprise
I know my part
You were there
In everything I’ve done
You are the one

I think what has always drawn me to this song is the idea of finding your “one.” I’ve never been a believer in the “soul mate” concept, the idea that there is just one person out there for you. But maybe that’s because I haven’t met mine.

At this point in my life, however, I wouldn’t know a “soul mate” if it bit me in the ass. For the first few years of my relationship with my ex, I was amazed because everything was so “easy.” We never fought. So what if we didn’t have a ton of sex — we were married. When I embarked upon an ill-fated, half-assed emotional “affair” with a bisexual/gay man with whom I had more passion than I did with my husband, well, that’s when I knew my life was pretty fucked up.

I’m learning there is good drama and bad drama … and I have had more than my share of bad drama for a while.

I’m ready for a man to say, “You were there in everything I’ve done. You are the one.”

∗ Posted by Monique on 07.09.2005
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